One of the strangest things about embarking on this degree has been the fan studies aspect of it. Don't get me wrong, it was entirely my choice to include a chapter on fandom in my thesis. It's just...the hoop jumping? I had to fill out an ethics form and have it signed off by a committee in order to do something that I've already been doing on a daily(ish) basis for the last fourteen years - that is, talk to people on the internet
It's all for a very good reason - one that I'm 100% behind - but that doesn't mean it's not surreal.
Also surreal is the ability to turn around and go 'oh hell no' to some of the books I have to read and then proceed to nitpick the fuck out of them.
I mean, a book of essays on Harry Potter
crossed my To Read pile earlier this week. (I say that like I hadn't checked it out of the library weeks ago and then only just got round to reading it yesterday, which is what actually happened.) And yeah. My thesis isn't even on Harry Potter
, but thanks to the sheer span of fandoms covered in transmedia and fandom studies, I kind of had to read it anyway. (At least it wasn't Star Trek
. Again.) And I couldn't take it seriously. At all. I ripped it to shreds and then handed it back feeling vaguely guilty like I should be ashamed of myself for landing so hard on the fan side of aca/fandom.
I mean, there was this one essay that could have been fantastic - it was all about the medical side of the Potter series - had the author...read the books first? Just tiny details that didn't really
detract from his point but that turned me into that person
regardless.( Meta, in which I actually defend Dumbledore, under the cut... )
TL;DR: I'm still more of a fangirl than I am an academic and I waffle a lot.
(Crossposted to my LJ.)